So ready.
My husband left for Okinawa today. This was my first time seeing him off at an airport. I guess it really is as sad as it seems in the movies :/
I'm so ready to be THERE, not HERE. I am also ready to have clearances, screenings, passports, and any mention of such things behind us. I really do strongly hate this "hurry up and wait" process. I feel as if I am stressed twenty-four hours a day. I hate how I have to defend myself just to be able to live with my own husband. I can't even BELIEVEEEE that I was told I could be denied for area clearance because of my "mental health problems." I went to a psychiatrist twice when I was sixteen years old. In my personal records, it explains that back then I had mild anxiety, associated with my living arrangement (my mother is a severely panicky person, but there is no mention of that in my records, thank God) and that a veeeryyy low dose of anxiety medication should be just fine. No counseling, no hassle, just medication. I took the medication for two weeks but then decided to stop the medication on my own. I didn't even have the prescription filled again, and I never went back to the psychiatrist! In the forms for the medical screening, I checked that I had at one time seen a psychiatrist, but in both my and my family physician's opinion, I no longer need ANY mental health care of any sort. But of course, because this tid bit of medical history of mine has occurred in the last five years, I am subject to denial. If I am denied, you can bet I will fight until there is nothing left to fight about. To any one who was ever denied because of a situation similar to mine: I am so, so sorry for you and your family. I understand that the military must be careful with these screenings, as they don't want to send a dependent to an area unable to provide the needed health care, but seriously...I just feel threatened.
I'm so ready to be THERE, not HERE. I am also ready to have clearances, screenings, passports, and any mention of such things behind us. I really do strongly hate this "hurry up and wait" process. I feel as if I am stressed twenty-four hours a day. I hate how I have to defend myself just to be able to live with my own husband. I can't even BELIEVEEEE that I was told I could be denied for area clearance because of my "mental health problems." I went to a psychiatrist twice when I was sixteen years old. In my personal records, it explains that back then I had mild anxiety, associated with my living arrangement (my mother is a severely panicky person, but there is no mention of that in my records, thank God) and that a veeeryyy low dose of anxiety medication should be just fine. No counseling, no hassle, just medication. I took the medication for two weeks but then decided to stop the medication on my own. I didn't even have the prescription filled again, and I never went back to the psychiatrist! In the forms for the medical screening, I checked that I had at one time seen a psychiatrist, but in both my and my family physician's opinion, I no longer need ANY mental health care of any sort. But of course, because this tid bit of medical history of mine has occurred in the last five years, I am subject to denial. If I am denied, you can bet I will fight until there is nothing left to fight about. To any one who was ever denied because of a situation similar to mine: I am so, so sorry for you and your family. I understand that the military must be careful with these screenings, as they don't want to send a dependent to an area unable to provide the needed health care, but seriously...I just feel threatened.
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Comment by Jennifer Graham on March 2, 2012 at 3:31am -
I am sorry to hear that. Seeing your husband off is as sad as the movies. I have seen mine off more than I want to count it sucks. Thinking about your reunion helps. Sorry to hear about your issues with the clearance. We are having a bit of an issue as well but it is more enviromental. My husband needs to get through lake Tahoe to sacramento and the weather is pretty bad there alot of snow. So I feel your pain. I hurried up and got everything ready with our kids and myself and paperwork filled out just for an abrupt stop because of the weather. I hope things get better for you and you will be reunited with your hubby soon enough. Good luck.
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